Even mijn hart luchten. [Engels] - This is my legacy

[JustKidding]

Geschreven op: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEB_06stEVU


Tell me where to go, tell me what to do
I'll be right there for you
Tell me what to say, no matter if it's true
I'll say it all for you

All my life I've been bullied, been threaten like shit.
I felt like I was nothing worth, it caused me to crash n shit.
I never understood, people talkin' about sex.
They just laughed, they, -  didn't understand.
They didn't get it, why can't I just be one of them?
Be normal without, B-D-S-M,
Without a-sexuality,
Without the problems it causes for me.
Without worries about the future, without fightin' against what was rightfully mine.
Without explaining every single fucking thing, - Goddamn every  fuckin' time.
I wrote this rhyme to express it all in my limited time.
I hope you understand, but you probably can't.
It's not your fault, but it neither is mine.
Stop blaming me, stop hurting me, stop pretending you wasted your time.
Because we both know our relationship was just fine.
Now you pretend it wasn't even worth a dime.
You blame me, saying the fault was all mine
But when the relationship lasted you said it was all fine
This feels as if I'm threaten like shit again
Just throw 'em away, it was all just for the lust 'n gain.

Well, heh, atleast it felt fine.

And if you fall, I'll get you there
I'll be your savior from all the wars that are fought
Inside your world
Please have faith in my words

'Cause this is my legacy, legacy, eh
This is my legacy, legacy, eh
There's no guarantee,
It's not up to me,
We can only see
This is my legacy, legacy
Legacy, legacy


I think about the time when everything felt just fine,
When I was young, just a kid, no worries n shit.
When BDSM didn't exist.
When A-sexuality wasn't on my fuckin' dating list.
When I didn't feel the need to yell.
But now it all feels just like hell,
Don't worry sweetie, this ain't no word of farewell.
This is simply a scream for your help.
You said you understood
You said you felt it too,
You said no matter what happens, it will all be good.
But then you said you wanted sex.
I felt fallin' back again
The same road over and over again
I don't even know where to begin
I don't even have energy to do it all over again
I don't have hope encase it turns out bad again.
I live this live of not knowing where it will end
You won't understand, you just simply cant.
Since I wouldn't understand, sex? Come on man.

But, no, No-one will ever come that close again
I won't let 'em, I won't accept 'em, I won't even let 'em try, I'd just let love die, just die.
Yeah, I would just let it die.
I will be here, sit and cry
about all the lovely things that could have been mine

- Snap out of it, stop being like this kid, stop cryin' about the stuff that could have been,
Just take it on the chin
And find your own way to win.
Let 'em just be whatever they are
Find the person that is just like you are
Sooner or later she will come
Don't worry son, trust me, she will come.
..


Ah, fuck it,

...

Just let it die
Let love die
..
.
Let it die,
'cause,


This is my legacy, legacy, eh
This is my legacy, legacy, eh
There's no guarantee,
It's not up to me,
We can only see
This is my legacy, legacy
Legacy, legacy


But this is just my legacy, yeah a legacy.
It's my complexity, It is my reality
It's my immobility.
One day I will break free.
But when would that be?
Or will I eventually eat fruit from a poisonous tree?
Never to return, never to come back, never to feel the need to be loved again.
Will the scars be all I have left?
Will this be, what I will forever be.
Will this, just be, my endless legacy?
Unpleasantly as it can be
It will stay presently
Regretfully, it is just my bodies biochemistry
So they will hurt me unintentionally
I need to accept that respectfully,
Well I guess, we can only see...


'Cause
Eh
hmhm
'Cause this
Hmhm, This.

.


'Cause

This is my legacy, legacy, eh
This is my legacy, legacy, eh
There's no guarantee,
It's not up to me,
We can only see
This is my legacy, legacy
Legacy, legacy